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Every time I try, I fall back real fast
I never have an excuse for all the crap I go through
Even when I try to stop it
It finds way back into me
Though I say it’s not my fault
I’m lying I just ain’t caught
Though I’ve been misunderstood,
and I’ve been led astray before
I admit I was trying to find my way
but somehow it just wasn't right
If I have you one more time
I’ll try and treat you right
I promise I won’t walk away,
like that time once before,
The fact I cut you off,
was a mistake that I regret,
I promise I won’t be scared,
I’ll face you like a woman
I’ll be the mommy you always dreamed of
and promise I’ll stay true
I’ll care for you when you're scared
I’ll hold you when you're afraid,
Your frail little body
will be mine to treasure
all your life,
If I have this chance again
I will never regret
the mistakes I made before
They will not cause me to cut you off
The joy you bring to my soul
will be more than any mistake I’ve made
even though I’m way too young,
I’ll grow up fast to give you that life
even though I’m scared right now
holding you will make me see
any mistake can be turned into something good
or will I regret the rest of my life,
I’m sorry I’m just scared I don’t want this to be so
Will I be like all the others?
Have you and walk away?
This is a mother’s plea
Her prayer God please hear
So many others have walked in these shoes
But a mother’s love is hard to fill
Copyright © 2010 by Courtney Young.
The poet puts into words feelings we have when we fail to live up our best vision of ourselves. A raw, uncompromising and powerful poem. I can only say in response that it is better all around to try and fail and try again than to wait on the sidelines of life.